Hhihihi.
I had training today till like 12.
Met Nat at about 1.15pm at lot 1 for lunch. Left about 3 plus. Decided to walk home cause we were super bored. Pit stops were at school and limbang.
Got home, caught one tree hill.
Planning camp now.

Learn to let go of the past. And recognize that every day won't be sunny, and when you find yourself lost in the darkness and despair, remember it's only in the black of night you see the stars. And those stars will lead you back home. So don't be afraid to make mistakes, to stumble and fall, cause most of the time, the greatest rewards come from doing the things that scare you the most. Maybe you'll get everything you wish for. Maybe you'll get more than you ever could have imagined. Who knows where life will take you. The road is long and in the end, the journey is the destination.

I honestly think Rascal Flatts did a great job with this video, very well done.

At the starting of the video, as I remember, was like a replica of what happened that Monday morning after Valentine’s Day. The screaming, the shouting, the crying. Glad that the ending wasn’t the same. Just that I wasn’t dressed cause I ran out of the shower, screaming at my mum as she was making the call.
That was a day I know I will never forget, because at that point of time, I knew that all I had to do was to protect you.
Okay, lets snap out of that.


Went to school to meet Nat to do up our kite today. It looks abit retarded, but funny in a way. Went for prata, then got home after that.

I am also supposed to head to bugis to meet the seniors for a midnight movie, till my mum called me in the afternoon and changed her mind about permitting me to go out.
Stupid.

It’s hard to deal with the pain of losing you everywhere I go,
But I’m doing it.

Slept at 4 last night, super groggy.
Woke up at 645, prepared and went out to meet the gang.
Went to Braddell and the amazing race started.

FUN!
WE GOT FIRST.
I'm very lazy to elaborate though.

Came home and slept for awhile.
I've like sleeping 2-3 hours these days, or even none.
Camp's coming, gotta pump up my petrol.

Midnight movie and MAYBE tonning with team tomorrow. yay!

Barrage trip postponed ):

Before I go to sleep..........


CLASSIC!

TAEYEON. YOON A. LEETEUK. RYEOWOOK.
I believe beautiful people like them exist in this world okay. Lol.

Had training today. Intended to leave training at 12, but i was so hyped up to play games till i left at 6.
Reached home with giddiness and headache crapxzx.
Had fever again and it's weird why my temperature keeps rising only in the night.
It's like, not fever, maybe it's just me.

I've got the amazing race thing tomorrow with Angeline, Isabel, Merlin and Darren.
I hope my fever recedes then i can i have FUN! It's been ages since I last saw them anyway.

People make mistakes, don't they.
But I guess the only thing you can do is to forgive yourself, and learning to forgive others.
More importantly, trusting yourself/the other party that that you/the other party never make that mistake again.

I'm standing up on my own now (:

BACK FROM CHALET!

Day 1
Met the gang at lot 1, headed over to chalet.
Checked in, then headed over to get our BBQ stuff.
Got back, mahjong, BBQ, mahjong till 2am.
Everyone bathed and relaxed, went to mac at 4am (just nice breakfast) for breakfast.
Back at chalet, mahjong till 6.
Gang slept, then i went for a walk down the beach.

Day 2
Pigs woke up about 10.
Everyone bathed, changed.
Went to E!Hub for 2012. Watched for second time, but equally nice, then was bowling.
Packet dinner, back to chalet. Settle bills.
Mahjong again till about 11.
Bathed, went to room for blackjack and talk.
Rested for 2 hours, too cold, went out to walk walk while the pigs carried on sleeping.

Day 3
Woke up at 6 and bathed.
Headed out for breakfast at 7 then to the beach to talk talk.
Back to chalet to relax and relax all the way till 10 plus.
Check out.
HOME!

Without Sheena, Shijie, Perry, Peishan, Amal, Sufyan, Ms Thng, James, Alicia, John, this chalet wouldn't be a success!
Photos will be uploaded on facebook.


Training today, played match.
Weiwei wasn't feeling well, i was deprived of sleep. Rawr.

Back home now, gonna meet Nat for supper soon, back later.
Fever's coming back


There is no duty we so much underrate as the duty of being happy.
In the hearts and minds of the people, the grapes of wrath were growing heavy for the vintage.
First step to get the things you want out of life: Decide what you want.

Off to chalet.
Back on friday night after I'm done with training.

I'll miss you, you know.
I guess some people play hard to get, cause they need to know if the other persons' feelings are true.

hello world.
my temperature's very weird today.
it was alright till afternoon, then alright again, then shot up once i got home.
maybe it's just home sick, isn't it.
Apparently getting the necessary jabs, so that i can get myself through the coming chalet.
And when i'm back, definitely expecting a week's MC.

Out of the night that covers me,
Black as the pit from pole to pole,
I thank whatever gods may be
For my unconquerable soul.

In the fell clutch of circumstance
I have not winced nor cried aloud.
Under the bludgeonings of chance
My head is bloody, but unbowed.

Beyond this place of wrath and tears
Looms but the Horror of the shade,
And yet the menace of the years
Finds, and shall find, me unafraid.

It matters not how strait the gate,
How charged with punishments the scroll,
I am the master of my fate: I am the captain of my soul.
-William Ernest Henley

I miss Daddy.

Weaknesses.
You cannot run away from a weakness; you must sometimes fight it out or perish. And if that be so, why not now, and where you stand?

Off to chalet till friday.
Catch me after that.

I'm sick now.
39.4degrees.
ROLLS EYES.

Today was fine,
had a good laugh with Farhana, Iffah and Aishah at macs after school.

I'm actually feeling pretty normal now, so yeah.
I'm very angry to get sick now, thanks to the bad experience that last time i had fever.
I told myself that i don't wanna fall sick anymore. but that's not possible so -.-

Well, the sad thing's that my family's giving me the same shit even though i'm in this state.
I can't tell my mum that i'm sick, if not she won't let me go for the chalet.
Another hope is that, she may let daddy come home though. Hmmmmmmmmmmm.

I think I'll be watching my one tree hill through the night, hehehe.
I just got the third season. Ain't gonna miss a second of it!
I'm still come to school though.

Went for service today with nat and nicole.
it was powerful, yeah. hmm.
slacked with nat at macs till about 5.

Met laura for badminton.
Caught up with vighnesh, max and shawn(acs br) at stadium.
It was nice, after so long.
Dinnered, got home about 10.

(Stopping the count now.)



Just the date, isn't it.

/Edit
Daddy didn't have to leave home.
Why did Mummy have to chase him away.

alright, went out for pool with casper today.
met him at bukit timah at about 5, played all the way till 8.
went to lot one for pizza after that. homed later.

been very tired, chalet's coming on wednesday.
my eye has been very irritating lately, very very itchy.
the mosquito bites too.

badminton with laura and maybe vighnesh/edward tomorrow.
looking forward to catching up after so long!

my hair's been growing very quickly now. i just cut at the beginning of november, and now it look as if i didn't get that haircut. rawr.

Day 75
I'm getting better, so much better.
I realised that it took me so long to get on the right track, because i was scared.

There's no shame on being afraid. Hell, we're all afraid!
What you've gotta do, is to figure out what you're afraid of.
Because when you put a face on it, you can beat it.
-Coach Durham, One Tree Hill.

There's tide in the affairs of men.
Which taken at the flood, leads onto fortune.
But omitted, and the voyage of their lives are bound in shallows and miseries.
On such a full sea, we are now afloat.
And we must take the current when it serves, or lose the ventures before us.

life is good, baby.

i had lessons today.
i reached school at 10 with extreme moody cells in me. i didn't know how to start my day.
anyway, we had math and it was tedious, drawing lines and lines and lines. rahh. then was history, it was alright with the quiz and games and all, yeah. sbq was draining though, haha. then after that, went to limbang with farhana and shirlynn, grabbed some food.
went back to school, then walked with farhana to lot one, and then got home.
rushed out for training.
training was fine, i saw danial after a thousand years. hahahahaha. hmm, trained and matched. i kinda fought with weiwei. i wonder how things are now. hmm. bathed with the usual few, then got home.
waiting for sms..........

pool tomorrow or sunday. rahh.

going out for supper with nat.
it's actually really really cute to think back of how i was bullying you in primary 1.
i'm glad things never changed! muahahaha!
FASTER SMS ME LEH. I VERY HUNGRY!

Day 74
EDITTED.
I ACTUALLY FORGOTTEN TO WROTE THE COUNT.
OH MY GOD. THIS IS A SIGN, A GOOD ONE.

lessons today.
skipped chemistry.
went for math and english, then went home.

one tree hill again, then went out to lot to meet kamho for 2012.
it was a superb 2hr 45min show. haha! very good, recommended to all.

today in the cinema, the ring rolled off from my pocket.
i wanted to wait for the movie to end, then pick it up.
but i couldn't, i just had to get down that second, pick it up and put my whole hand in the jacket with the ring in my palms for the rest of the movie.

Day 73
i need security now.
i feel so vulnerable, like anything can happen to me anytime.
i have not felt this way for hellla long time.
but i've gotta stand up strong, on my own feet now.
one man for himself, isn't it?
it's mind-over-soul mode now.
i've gotta live my life, my way, my style, my goals.

E. E. Cummings once wrote.
To be nobody but yourself in a world which is doing it's best, night and day to make you everybody else, means to fight the hardest battle which any human can fight, and never stop fighting.

im crazy, third today.


If today was your last day
and tomorrow was too late
Could you say goodbye to yesterday?
Would you live each moment like your last?
Leave old pictures in the past
Donate every dime you have?

Would you call old friends you never see?
Reminisce of memories
Would you forgive your enemies?
Would you find that one you’re dreamin’ of?
Swear up and down to God above
That you finally fall in love

If today was your last day
Would you make your mark by mending a broken heart?
You know it’s never too late to shoot for the stars
Regardless of who you are
So do whatever it takes
‘Cause you can’t rewind a moment in this life
Let nothin’ stand in your way
Cause the hands of time are never on your side
If today was your last day

this song makes me want to go talk to you. so much.

 2nd post of the day. 
this is for ranting.

YOU KNOW AH.
everyone's finding love again.
i'm still like, stuck in the past.

seriously ah, i love you until very tiring okay,
but ah.
i don't know but something is keeping me going.

I'VE GOT MATH AND GEOG HOMEWORK TO DO. 
IT CAN TAKE ME ABOUT, HMM, 3 HOURS?
ALRIGHT I NEED COMPANION THROUGH THE NIGHT!

hey ho.
alright, today's pretty simple.
woke up at about 8.30 and got prepared for lessons.
went to school for physics and geog.
lunched with shijie and sheena, then off to sungei buloh.
fun! fun! fun!
not elaborating, lazy lah.

rushed home, bathed, went out to meet casper for pool at about 630.
played till 9, went back home.

at yew tee, something freaky happened.
( READ ON! )
alright. i'm like, going to be alone for the whole night now.
my sis, parents, are all gonna be out till the next morning when i'm already out for school.
YAY or NAY?

Day 72
i miss badminton chalet 2008.
i wish it never ended.

ALRIGHT.

apart from the drama, today's training is fine.
came home, shagged. very very tired.
there's still lessons tomorrow, bye.

Day 71 baby.
If you spent the whole day planting seeds, waiting for the rain to come but to no avail, your efforts are wasted.
But if you spent your life loving someone so deeply and meaningfully, but eventually had to give it all up, your efforts are definitely not wasted.
Because to the minimal, you experienced to love someone deeply.

Do not let the fire go out.
Spark by a replaceable spark, in the hopeless swamps of the not-quite, the not-yet, and the not-at-all.
Do not let the hero in your soul perish in lonely frustration for the life you deserved but never been able to reach.
And we must take the current when it serves, or lose the ventures before us.

Sometimes, goodbye is a second chance.

( 3B CLASS BBQ 071109 )

tonned with alvin at east coast yesterday.
going out for training now.

hate darlie, hate darlie.
why is your ego just so freaking huge?
backstabber.
POP and class bbq pictures coming up tonight.

Day 71.

alright, back home from class bbq.
supposed to meet shijie, sheena and jingyi at cck control station at 330 and meet ms thng at her condo at 4. okay, i set the time at 330 cause i totally expected ALL of them to be late. okay, so about 335, i reached. sheena and jingyi also reached, but where's shijie?!?!?!?!!
SHIJIE REACHED AT 355! YAY!
okay, then when we wanted to board the train already, sheena went to accompany jingyi to withdraw money, while me and shijie waited for them at the control station. then, sheena suddenly say that jingyi got no money, and they wanted to go home! AHHH. okay, in the end me and shijie sian diao. LOL. then when we called jingyi, she said she was already at the bus interchange waiting for the bus. if shijie wanted to persuade her again, he had to go there. so, shijie went there while i waited for him at the control station area.
after that, two crazy women, specifically sheena and jingyi, ran towards me from the LRT area and we went up to the platform. LOL. Shijie obviously got owned!
then, sheena and jingyi boarded the next train to bukit gombak first. i called shijie and told him that sheena and jingyi, GIVE UP LO!
okay. then me and shijie headed to gombak, saw sheena at the mrt station waiting for us.
then shijie's question was, "WHERE'S JINGYI!"
okay. then me and sheena wanted to go to the toilet. then after that, jingyi went out of the toilet to meet shijie. lol, he seriously super cui. then after that, i went out of the toilet. "SHEENA SHITTING." okay lor, wait lor. then, when shijie was ranting, sheena came out and splash water at him. okay, huge huge joke okay.

then, reached ms thng's house, waiting for the food to come. at 540, me and shijie went to bukit gombak mrt to fetch the others. then, the bbq started.
well, i had to say i did not crap much cause i was pretty much walking around, doing work. so, yeah. after that, when the food was finishing, everyone started to high already. i didn't have any good laughs cause i just did not have the mood to.
i have to apologise to all lah, i wasn't myself today. there was alot on my mind.
then me and ms thng packed up, then we sat together to play zhong zi mi ma again. it was fun lah, but still i was very quiet. yeah.
then after that, packed up and we went back..
at first, jingyi and shijie and me wanted to go lot 1 play arcade/watch movie. in the end, cui. all went home. then, me, shijie and perry cabbed home lor.
so here i am now, all bathed and clean, typing out this post. yeah.

seriously lor, i don't like darlie. darlie is an idiot, seriously.. he just literally very idiotic in every way, no other way to describe him already.
wanna know who's darlie? ask me lor.

still, i'm very excited for class clique chalet, really.
can't wait to see my lovelies in kiddy pj's playing mahjong.

Day 68
i just hope that you're having tons of fun now.
i'm like willing to exchange my chance of getting high, just to know that you're having fun and taking care of yourself.
cui, this has so gotta go.

shawn, 
you say you will think of how i feel from that incident onwards.
and what happened today again huh? 
i really really hope that you can put yourself in my shoes okay.
rahh, think through think through alright! 

Hello my little children, that thing below can click okay.

( It does not matter. )

alright.
apologies for not posting yesterday.
i went out with casper and kamho for pool and dinner, then when i came back, all the drama stepped in.
rawr. i had fun yesterday though.

as for today, lessons started at 10 but i reached at 10.20 cause i woke up at like, 9.40 and there were no cabs at all, (irritating).
mathed, then ss, then went home. changed up to go for debbie and james' POP. it was really really really really really really really fun. all the screaming and all.
after that, went back with farhana and awal. met alvin at lot one and had mos burger. i didn't eat anything, cause i was paranoid and stressed up and worried and concerned. sigh.
(i'm hungry now, someone feed me!)
talked talked with alvin till about 9, then we went up to the arcade for some datona. played till about 1015, then we went back home.


luckily, i made the final decision of not wearing the jacket out. the weather almost killed.

Day 67
siao liaozxzxz,
gonna miss you like crazy.
regardless of what, go enjoy and have the time of your life.
:D